my humblest apologies to this author! she has changed her name from Widmark to Edwards, a significant change that i missed. I have edited this post to reflect the correct name, but since i shared this post before i realized the error, i felt i needed to make the clarification.
Hi Robin, thank you so much for inviting me on your Blog.
I’m a newly published author. My first book, “A Door Cracked Open” was published in November 2015, during my six month stay in wonderful America. (I didn’t want to leave)! At first glance, my book……a biography, may look like an “Oh poor me” story. It is not. Rather, I hope to show through the story (a true one), how God rescues, how He had his hand on Amy and pulled her through every difficult situation. The story continues in the second book of the series…….hoping it will be published in June 2016. Yeah, I have a dead line and pushing myself to get this done in time.
How my book cover came to be…..
“A Door Cracked Open.” I had a specific picture in my mind of how I wanted my cover to look. It had to have a door, just open a crack, with light coming through it and across the floor at the bottom. I Googled lots of photos and found nothing that came even close to what I had in mind. So, while I was in Sweden, patient cousins took me to places, looking for the right door. Nothing worked…not that I was happy with anyhow. Then, staying with other cousins in Sweden, I explained exactly what I wanted….”But we have a door which opens that way and it has a light inside.” ….It was a cupboard. They kindly set it up for me to take a photo. All the lights off in the main room, the door open a crack with the cupboard light on and bingo……..the light shone through the gap and across the floor, exactly as it did in my mind. With the photo taken, I knew at once that it would be my front cover, I then began to think about my back cover. Again, I knew what I wanted, but thought I’d have to improvise. It would mean a trip to an island if I were to get the photo I wanted and it would depend on a sunset being just so if that were the case. What are the odds of that on a cloudy day? I had one chance to go just three days before I returned to USA for three months. I needed the photo right then, as I was coming back to USA to get my book published. It had to be THAT particular island too, for it to mean anything. I went, I was there an hour and just minutes before getting the ferry back to the mainland, clouds disappeared and a gorgeous sunset took their place. I got my photo. I was one very happy person.
Photographs: Carmina Edwards.
My personal story is long and complicated, but I’d like to share with you, a few “bullet points,” my story in a nutshell. Believe me, for a long winded person such as I, this was no easy task. If something can be said in twenty words, it’ll take me at least two thousand words to say the same thing.
These “bullet points” tell of how I came to write my book. I’ve always been an avid reader and could read before I started school. Simple sentences for sure, but I always had to have a book in my hand. From very early on, I wanted to write my own books, but self-doubt, the result of always being told how useless I am and that I’d never be good at anything, prevented me from trying. But then it happened.
I was made homeless in England (my home country) four years ago and moved to Sweden where I had a home. Unable to obtain the ID number required to work there, I was forced to sell my home in Sweden after three years as I could no longer afford to keep it without a job. During my time there, I looked to God for inspiration and desperate not to fall into the pit we call depression, I heard as clearly as anything….”Write that book.” I’d had the notion to write a book for some years, but always dismissed the idea. I finally caved in and wrote it.
When I sold my house there, I didn’t have enough money from the sale to rent a place in UK, it was too expensive, given that the prices are so high and without work, was asked to pay a year’s rent in advance. I didn’t have it. I’d found an agent in USA interested in getting my book published, so after two weeks in UK, I went out to America for 6 months, worked with my editor and my book was published there. Had I stayed in the UK, that same money would have only kept me in a hotel for less than three months. It seemed like my only option.
After four book signings in Oregon, USA, I returned to the UK, unable to stay in the USA any longer without a visa. I knew that my return would be hostile with only the streets to call home. I couldn’t imagine living on the streets and at the age of 54, really didn’t look forward to it. I finally accepted it and told God I’d do it then. I planned where I would hide at night to stay safe. A trip to Starbucks before I left USA was one which moved me. A homeless man stood in front of me in the queue. My heart went out to him. That would be me in a couple of weeks’ time, I paid for his coffee.
The very next day, an old school friend who I’d not seen in 38 years contacted me on Facebook and knowing my plight, refused to allow it. She has given me a room in her house to stay for a while and feeds me. I am looking for work, though at my age, that’s also proving impossible. But God has such a knack of making sure I have what I NEED, when I need it. The story’s not over and I know there are more miracles to come, that’s what He does and I can’t wait to share when that happens, with all my friends and readers.
Because I was on the brink of making the hostile streets my home and ever aware that still could happen, I have a passion now, to help the homeless however I can. A percentage of all sales of my book and future books, will go to the homeless in some capacity or another with no “middle man” taking a share first.
Finally, I’d like to thank you for taking the time to read this. Thank you again Robin, for inviting me. Prayerful union with you all. God bless.
rem note: Carmina, Father has a purpose and a plan for all your been through. While I do not believe He ever ordains tragedy in our lives, I DO believe He can and will and does use it for our good. Romans 8:28
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