I had planned to write today’s Devotional about worship. However, today’s church service ministered to me in such a way that I will share what Holy Spirit dropped in my spirit this morning. While we were singing William McDowell’s, “Withholding Nothing,” the part that says, “I surrender all to you,” He told me to surrender ALL – surrender my pain – NO!! NOT MY pain, THE pain, surrender THE Rheumatoid Arthritis, surrender [and here’s a biggie] THE poverty!!! They are NOT mine! They are NOT my portion nor my inheritance. I have identified with these for so long, I’ve tolerated them for so many years – but no more!! NO MORE!!!
It’s the great exchange. When we give Him what we have and are – He gives us what He has and is. Papa God is everything. He has everything.
And then, the part where he’s singing about, “All I want is You.” And Holy Spirit said back to me, “All I want, Robin, is you.” That’ll blow your mind. All He wants- is US.
So, I relinquish all that comfortable junk, all that which seemed and felt like it was mine, but isn’t. Lies can never be mine. Or yours. Lies aren’t anything, they are distortions, mirages, illusions – and they aren’t real. We can never own something that isn’t real, we can never own nothing.
But the Truth. The Truth is faith and evidence and substance of things unseen. The Truth is the fulfillment of all that He is and has for us. The Truth is who we are. The Truth is our identity [there’s my theme again!!! Imagine that!!] And our identity is in Him! Outside of that, away from Him, our identity flounders, flops, and fails. For if we are not attached to the Truth – to the Vine – we cannot sustain ourselves, our lives. And we settle for counterfeit, for lies, for vapors of nothing. Pain that I’ve lived with for years? Not true, not God’s Truth. Poverty? Not His either.
I offer this poem I penned a few years ago.
The Problem with Pain
The problem with pain is that it
hurts. That’s just what the prob
lem is. And it’s subversive, it sneaks up on you and calls itself something else and always overstays its welc ome. It says it’s ok, you’ll get
used to it. You won’t mind after a
while, and you don’t. You treat
pain like a welcome guest in
your home only this is
And it hurts and you don’t even know
it’s there anymore. It just trolls through you and strikes out
at you and you catch your breath. And take a pill or
a shot. And we wrap our wounds in gauze
like a mummy. And part of us dies. And pain, it
laughs at you because we said it was ok for it to
stay. It slows us down and says we hurt too
bad to do that. But we really wa
nted to do that. And now we’re sad too. Cause Sad an
d Pain are friends. And we realize that life has slipped by and all the things we wanted and all the drea
ms we dreamed and all the goals we set have vanished. And we can never get them back. And Pain know
s this. And laughs because this was th
e plan. To keep
me, to hold
from what I was
meant to do. From wh
at I was created
What I was put here
But guess what?
Guess what Pain?
I say go away.
I say you can’t stay.
YOU CANNOT STAY!!!
And Pain, it knows that it must listen to me. Because
I speak with authority.
But it doesn’t go quietly.
It doesn’t go peaceably.
It goes kicking and screaming and clawing. Even i
ts exit hurts.
But it goes.
It leaves my body and my life.
And now my dreams and goals and all the things I ever wanted in my life can be.
I can do the things I could not do before.
I can be who I could not be with this demon attached to me.
For I am free. I can be me. I can be who I was created to be.
© Robin E. Mason
18 April 2009
That’s the problem with any lie, it doesn’t want to go. It moves in and settles in, takes over and gets comfortable. In our lives. But it doesn’t belong in our lives, and when we kick it out, when we tell that thing, whatever the lie in your life may be, that in the Name of Jesus it has to go – it isn’t going to go peaceably. And it may take some time. [OUCH!!!] But authority is authority, and it doesn’t waver or quake. And if we stand firm in the authority that belongs to us as the righteousness of Jesus, those lies have not choice and they will flee.
So yes, I surrender ALL to Holy Spirit. Because I know what He offers, what He has for me in exchange, is perfect.
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